It’s so Hard to Say Goodbye

One night when she was five, The Bookworm woke me up crying. She was so distraught and it took some time for her to tell me what was making her so sad. When she finally blurted it out, I had hide my smile at the sweetness.

“Why are you crying?” I asked as I brushed the hair from her forehead.

“Because someday I’m going to grow up and leave you and I don’t want to ever leave you!” She whimpered, her tiny little hand clutching mine.

“You don’t ever have to leave. You can stay with me forever, okay?” I lied soothingly. But it didn’t feel like a lie because she was my little girl and she would never leave, right? Or at least not for a long, long, long time.

And she calmed right down and fell back asleep.

And then the day came that she did grow up and she did leave me. This is my Facebook post from the day she left.

She went off on a great adventure to the other side of the world, to do great things for God as she followed her own path and became the most amazing young woman. I am so proud of her!

For the past few weeks, The Bookworm has been home again. And it has been so fantastic. Between doing fun things like going to to the Fair, the zoo, shopping, eating out, and visiting family and friends, we’ve had some lovely times just being home all together. All eight of my kids under the same roof once again – playing games, watching movies, working puzzles, talking, laughing, and eating, eating, eating!

Soon, my grown up girl will get on an airplane and fly away again. She has a life in Israel to return to, with home, friends, and responsibilities. I will have to say goodbye again, a thing not easily done. But right now, in this moment, I am soaking up every second of her presence, taking lots of pictures, and resting in the joy that having all of my family together brings.

I have lots of knitting to share, and some spinning, too! But the blog is going to have to wait a few more days. There just isn’t enough time left with my daughter to spare any for sitting on the computer!

Changing Direction

A few months ago, The Princess and I sat down and brainstormed her next sweater. She wanted rainbow dinosaurs all over it. So I made up a chart and we picked out some yarn and I cast on.

Alas, my chart was too complicated and the black background too hard to see at night and the knitting was NO FUN. After all this time, I only had a few inches knit and zero desire to continue.

So, The Princess and I sat down again and brainstormed again and came up with a new plan. This new plan is coming along much better.

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Sometimes you gotta press on and keep knitting until the thing is done because you know that it will be so worth it. Sometimes you gotta frog and rethink because you know you’re never going to finish it the way it is.

I am very excited about this new plan. I think this sweater is going to turn out even better than that first idea. Now the race is on to finish it before she grows!