Letting Go

We all have at least one. I know that I do. It haunts my dreams and lurks in the back of my mind. I tell myself that I will take care of it, but I mostly operate in denial. It holds me back from my full potential and takes up valuable resources. It is time to deal with it. What is this insidious evil lurking in the background of my life? What dark secret am I hiding?

Celandine is it’s name, but yours may go by a different one. A love affair gone wrong, the flames have fizzled, the vision has blurred. I know now that I will never complete this knitting project. It has sat in it’s unfinished state, forgotten and gathering dust, for far too long.

It really is a shame, too, because I had such high hopes for this knit. The silk yarn is amazing (not to mention expensive), the pattern is intriguing, and the color is perfect. I once had visions of wearing this cute little top with my red and white flower print skirt. It was going to be beautiful.

But, reality has to surface eventually, and according to my Ravelry page on this project, I have not touched it in two years (wow! Two years? I started this before I got pregnant with The Fraggle? That is a lifetime ago)! So it is time to let go.

Now comes the tricky part. Frogging. Not my favorite thing to do, but even more so with all these little lace squares. And my heart breaks when I think of all the work that went in to each one. I bought 0000 needles to make them with! But then….

Lightbulb!

Headbands.

Cute, right?

So, I am letting go, but with reservations. And I will wear Celandine in my hair, instead.

Monogamous Knitting…. of sorts….

It is no secret that I have a serious case of unfaithfulness when it comes to knitting.

I cast on projects willy-nilly regardless of how many things are currently on the needles.

And, sometimes, I don’t finish things… um… ever.

I do feel bad about this from time to time. I get bursts of “finishitis” in which I resolve to finish something (or a few somethings) before I start something new. Often these bursts result in a few things finished and a few things frogged and are followed by rebound startitis (which is even worse than regular startitis). Rebound startitis finds me with more projects going than I have needles for (whew! I have a lot of needles, too!) and once I even bought more needles to satisfy the desire to cast on yet another must-knit-now project.

I felt the finishitis coming on right after I got all that lovely new yarn in the mail. How could I cast on something new when I had so many projects in the works? I did finish some things before the yarn got here – I got the Princess Sweater done after all, and the remainder of my hired knitting was completed in time. But, the socks are still where they were three months ago, Celandine hasn’t even been looked at for a good year (!), I’ve got a lace shawl going, and Smitten (which will be done before Christmas even if it kills me with it’s boringness! Why, oh, why did I think that I would enjoy knitting 25 of the exact same things?!?!).

Time for a compromise, time to turn over a new leaf. Here is my knitting basket as it looks today.

And this is my new monogamous knitting strategy. When I finish with a ball of The Boy’s Driftwood Cardigan –

then I will finish the Kindle Fire cozy for The Bookworm.

Once that is done, I will finish one sock in my Natalie Loves Me Socks

and four or eight mittens for Smitten.

Then I will do another ball of The Boy’s sweater.

Then I will re-evaluate the knitting basket and take it from there.

I realize that, strictly speaking, this is not monogamous knitting. But, if I stick to one project at a time, working toward a goal before allowing myself to move to the next project, than I think that kind of counts… right?

Maybe. Just Maybe. I can get some things finished.
(Where is the lace? you ask. Where is Celandine? One thing at a time, my Dear, one thing at a time.)

Of course, this is applies to my knitting, which I haven’t really been doing much of.

Oh, dear! I knew I shouldn’t have picked up a new hobby….

Knitting Therapy

When tears constantly fall. When grief threatens to crush me.
When sorrow is too great to bear, knit something complicated.

It may not change anything, but at least it occupies the mind.

Pictured – the first medalion of many for Celandine in Claudia Handpainted Silk Lace Rubies Playing

When I can gather together words, I will explain better. Until then, please excuse me if I take a short break from blogging. I will be back as soon as I can. Meanwhile, I have a lot of complicated knitting to do…